♥ Friday, April 3, 2009
To someone
Sorry.
This week I dont know what was actually happening.
And, I know I had said something that you doesn't like it.
I apologize. but you are still in the silent.
I had told you most of the feeling of mine this time. but.just delete the msg.kay?
I cant stand it anymore.
Every NEVERMIND that had came out from my mouth was MIND in my heart actually.
You can't get it. It's ok. nevermind.
But, it's all my fault.kay?
I don't have a hairstyle that you really like although I had hardly changed it.
I don't have a sweet voice that you like to hear everytime.
I don't have a nice and gentle attitude that you like.
I don't have a pretty face that you like to look at.
I don't have a nice handwriting and drawing that you like to see.
I don't have a suitable weight and height that u like.
I didn't totally trust and belive you. although i said YES.
I'm not the special one, I'm simple enough.
I'm not a sport girl that you like.
I can only swim but you would like to jog.
I didn't done anything that you like.I didn't done anything that could make you happy.
I didn't fill my heart full with you.
I don't have anything that you like!!!I promise almost everything but how many did I or can I done?
I always communicate with my besties but you.
I love my school stuff and my besties more then you.
I close your phone and don't reply u suddenly and without reasons.
I do not listen to your explain.
I change the topics almost everytime to escape from your questions.
I know you hate me to do that but I did it also.
You ask me not to go but sometimes I went too.
I always leave you aside.
You almost gave me everything but did I? [did u reali gave?]
And I really feel very guilty and sorry...what I'd done.
Do you know what am I thinking?
NOTHING and NEVERMIND are the words that I said the most this year.
If the promises are real, how good it will be?
Don't simply promise or answer me anything.
Be wise and think clearly.
*I'm not trying to get any attention or wat la pls*
Remember what I'd told you. [ingat sampai mati]
I will always remember to say bye 1st.
Labels: Smile is the best way to pretend. =]
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